I wish I hadn't let myself get so attached to my therapist. I wish I hadn't allowed this transference to develop. I could have stopped it if I had shut down my emotions. I wish I had nipped it in the bud before it got so out of hand. Because now I have to say goodbye, and it feels like someone is ripping my heart out. Do I dare to tell her this when I see her on Thursday? There's nothing she can do, and I am afraid if I tell you how much this hurts so close to the ending of therapy she will feel responsible. I am afraid she will feel like I am trying to manipulate her into giving me free therapy because I am in danger of harming myself badly when I stop seeing her. I am kind of feeling angry at her because it's not like she couldn't see this coming. I've been up front about my feelings for her right from the beginning and have told her many times that I am going to miss her. I was in tears over this in our last session.