Do I tell her that the thought of never seeing her again makes me feel suicidal? I would feel bad saying that so close to the end of therapy. We are done in December, and only have 3 more sessions because I can only see her twice a week.

I am waiting to get assessed by my town's local mental health association, but I don't think they offer individual therapy, just groups. And it's my therapist who I am going to miss so terribly. I don't think anyone else would understand me the way she does. I don't ever want to say goodbye to her. I ache for her to be a permanent person in my life.

I'm heading out for a walk now because this is the last of the sun we're going to see for awhile.