The idea of driving terrifies me. It makes me panic due to things that have happened to me while I was learning to drive. I can't drive at all now. I know it limits me but I just can't. I've tried to get over this fear but I just don't have the right people around me to help me get over this fear and bad memories. The people I do have would only make it worse considering I have tried to learn with them I know they will not help.
I want to learn but the fear and memories are too strong. I know there are other ways to get around but logically driving would be easier. It's hard because I have this great sense of logic but I just can't bring myself to do the things I need to.
Like I know I need to drive, I need to get a job but so many things stop me. There's just all this fear and I don't know how to over come it. I've tried counseling, medication but none of those have helped me. I know healing takes time and there is no magic cure but I really wish there was. I wish that I could just wake up and be all better like none of the things that happened to me ever came to pass but they did and I have to live with that. Sad thing is that if I could drive, if I could get a job I could improve my life so much. But these fears are just too big for me to handle on my own and I don't have any support.
I think this is turning more into a rant but I had to write about this. I just want to know if anyone else had/has a fear and how they deal with it. I just feel so stuck at the moment.