So after a lot of time spent to figure out where the best place to ask might be, I'm still not sure if this is the right place. Just from the description I'd expect everyone here to be totally withdrawn from "reallife", but that doesn't seem to be the case at all, I checked every thread that sounded like it could be what I was looking for.

But I'll try anyway, I'm currently actively looking for anyone who might be a bit similar to me, and I think for that to be the case, I need to find someone who like me basically has no life and also has no interest in it.
And at least for a very long time didn't have any interest either, because I'm serious about this, no life allowed. Not even work, school is fine because even I had to crawl trough that, even if it almost killed me.
I'm looking for a real friend, online, who like me also will never have anyone important outside of the internet either and generally doesn't know a lot of people....and doesn't want to know hundreds of people either.

I actually never wanted to use forums, but I felt like I had to at least try something about my feelings, so here I am. Chances are someone might come across this at some point in time, and it's unlikely I reach my goal, yet I probably will keep living for a good while too... so can't hurt to put this out here.