I'll need to look for this book. Having the same problem right now. Never been hospitalized for depression, but so scared and worried that I might get to this point. Even talked to my boss about it and he suggested that if I needed to, I should do the FMLA thing. Looked into it but can't really afford to do it. I too need to hold on and want to overcome this episode of depression like I've done in the past. Trying it all. Light box, talks with my wife, praying etc. Still struggling.