Sorry to report so late. Stopped cutting, there's no need. For the time being yes.

It was damn helpful, call me stupid, as a result of my action, on the 4th day, I came up with a brilliant theory of the world, how to make a happier place, **** like that.

I just can't think of anyone as bad, there are no bad/evil soul, not more than our criminal justice system can't handle. If I take someone's word hurtful, that is on me. I struggle there so much.

NOTHING'S KNOWABLE. People don't seem to operate on that assumption, this is important to me. Words are tools, ,,,,,,,,,,,

If I were smarter, I woudln't be cutting? hmm..

It's like taking a hit of something, and I'm not a type of guy who follows the rule, that much is established.

Here's what happened yesterday morning. I went to work without a single minute of sleep, feeling groggy, but I took the word of a friend who reached out through PM with me. As usual, I was heading northward/up, my busy head was keeping me happy there, lots of excitement and joy from thinking, thinking the way through, then came the crash.

It's understandable, I felt exhausted and that zombified me was ... undescribable. 4.5 hours of that and my life is still moving along, it is not habitual for me.

Is addiction bad? To me, it is not that bad if you're learning something good.

Man, people and their behavior sometimes look so good, they're good, trying not to hurt, good rules. I go in there, not saying much and ignore me, that's fine. I start to .. Too uptight.

It is always like this. Don't get offended, don't wanna say it but it's on you. Look around and they are beautiful, on this beautiful day, murder happens. i'm just saying I could get killed by words today, and after this experience, one the of things that I learned is that the words, not the definition/meaning, but the intention hurts more than anything in the world.

Got any questions? ask away. will do my best to respond. ta-ta.