I just always feel so, I don't know, violated, I guess. After my annual exam or after one of these. I just feel violated and dirty. I don't know how else to explain it.
My first guess is that it stems from my CSA.
I can't imagine that anyone likes these invasions, but I wish it didn't bother me so much. I also over think about the person who has to administer the exam. I feel bad that they have to do that to anyone, let alone me. I think that they are probably disgusted at having to do "that" to this oversized flabby gross looking old lady.