I'm not going to say all that much because I don't know how it all works. What I do know is that for the sicker ones, sometimes we don't have a choice but is driven to madness by our own minds. For this can we call foul, to be held accountable for the driven final actions at our own hands? MI is a ******.

For all this I reject that notion. These outdated views are reserved for the normal and sane, those that were given opportunities of which we've been denied, those that have a choice to choose over blessings or selfishness. We do it for release from mental anguish and oppressive pain.

Being I part of a multiple personality system, I prefer to live a spiritual life, but an other wants to have fun and party while yet an other wants us dead....who wins? Is this fair to have hundreds of others in our single brain while others have the luxury of normal living, but we are to be held to the same standards and rules? Blah, I don't believe it.

When the bipolar goes out of whack, the suicider has almost total control. I find to be judged or held accountable over something that I didn't ask for or have no real control over, might as well as shoot me now because it sure doesn't look very promising from my side of the fence.

I have a problem with all that even though I spent my childhood in church. It's like dangling a carrot in your face with a red hot fire on your butt with your feet tied together trying to not fall on your face as you chase the carrot. Life is a huge jokester.