A number of posts today about people re-discovering people from their teenage years and marrying them....and the fairy tale not panning out. (Just an observation.)

Did you find this guy online and move in with him/marry him without spending much time with him? I think that 99% of the time, re-kindling things with that hottie you knew in high school doesn't turn out the way you envisioned. No, its not you, rather I think we have dreams of getting the guy (or girl) and when we do, they aren't who we thought they were. Or, its because people simply change.

Anyway, this relationship doesn't seem to be the *escape* you were looking for. I think you should leave the guy. Get out. Go back to where your kids are living. STAY SINGLE FOR AT LEAST A YEAR! Relationship hopping will get you nowhere. You need to learn how to be a fully functioning single adult so that you will be strong enough to stay out of bad relationships with bad guys.....for the simple reason that you won't need a guy to support you or to make you happy.

I wish you the best.