Thank you for the replies, appreciated, thank you.
To ChipperMonkey, my husband have emotions. He the type of guy that have no problem facing his own emotions.
Problem is, the way he solve conflicts kindda bother me. I feel that as a "MAN", he should talk back to me, told me that as a wife I can't keep yell and scream at him in his face nonstop like that.. You know what I'm trying to say?
In my Chinese culture, a wife cannot yell and scream at her husband face like that.
Like what I said in the last page, when I yell and scream at him, he worries about me, I can see the worried looks in his eyes. BUT then he just sit there quietly, and look at me yell and scream without say a word. Basically, he let me yell and talk blah blah until I run out of words.
After he saw I calm down, he started talking to me. And he calmly talk out the problem and work it out together.
He does speak up his viewpoints, he does speak up why he doesn't agree with me. But then like I say at the end 95%he let me have things "my" way so I can be happy.
He wasn't mad at me when I scream at him, he said he understand and that I don't need to apologize.
He thinks that when I'm mad yell and scream, it best that he should just be quiet and listen, and let me yell it all out.. Once I'm done yell and calm down, he will start talk to me and work it out together.
You see? this is the way he solve conflicts, arg!!
NEVER once he tell me to Shut up.
NEVER oncde he raise his voice on me.
He NEVER call me any mean words. The most meanest word he ever call me is "Silly"; which is true, I do do silly things in front of him.. And the word silly is not that mean, out of plenty of other words out there that he could have call me.
I heard of women complain that their DH call them the 'B' word and "C" word. So I'm darn glad that my husband only call me Silly.
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okay, I'm going to explain why I worried about him might build up resentment.
In our relationship, since day one I'm very upfront with him. I lay everything out on the table for him to see, I want to be FAIR to him.. He knows everything about my emotional baggage from my childhood, he knows all about my abusive mother.
He also know about my mother disapproval of him. He knows it all, and it he accepted it all.
He make it work, despite our huge cultural difference.
Thanks to him for always want to communicate. For us, clearly it 'communication' that helps us. There no secrets, I lay everything out on the table.
Why my mother disapproved him? It NOT his fault, because my mother is rigid and closed-minded.
I'm Chinese. And he from Sierra Leone, West Africa.
I think you get the point, no need to bluntly say out why my mom didn't approve him. It obvious 'why' my mom is disapproved him, it SOLELY because his skin color.
Anyways, he knows all about my mother discrimination against him, but it doesn't seem to bother him.
He married me knowing he won't have a mother in-law, knowing he won't have any in-laws at all. He accepted that.
He married knowing our future childrent won't have any maternal grandma, won't have any maternal grandparents side at all. He accepted that too.
He accepted it all, he knows exactly what he getting into. He doesn't want to give up on us, he asked me not to give up on us.
He said he doesn't care what my mother says or thinks of him. He just wants to concentrate on us, concentrate on our little family.
I don't know, I admit I do worried alot that resentment might build up over time. I guess I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop? You know what I mean?
I have no regrets married him. I chose him over my mother, my mom completely cut me off after I got married. I have no regrets, I do love him.
He also said he have no regrets married me. I asked him many times, and he says he happy, and he wants to 'stay married.'
Like I say, our marriage have been peaceful, tooo peaceful. We don't even argue or fight.
Well, accept that one time that we argue, but it was just 'ME' argue. He just quietly listen. And since I'm the only one that do the yelling and screaming, I don't know if this qualify as "WE" fighting.
I dunno, I feel that I'm must waiting for the other shoe to drop. You know?
Last edited by jasmine30; Nov 16, 2015 at 03:53 AM.
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