I actually don't disagree with abortion in some instances. I think all women should have the right to choose.

People talk about you having to deal with the repercussions of it but that isn't always the case. Some women get abortions and don't deal with after effects because they truly knew it was the best choice.

HOWEVER, you say in one instance that this is what you want but in another instance you have said that you kind of do want this baby " I am not fully ok with the decision and I will always remember I am doing this but as of right now for this situation it is my final decision." The fact that you aren't fully okay with the decision is concerning. I think that fact will cause you a lot of emotional turmoil.

Since you are set on getting an abortion I would suggest that you look into counseling options to deal with it. You might find that you need it to cope.

Adoption would definitely be an alternative but I know that isn't always plausible. Just, do what you can to take care of your mental health.