Little update, I just came home.

I didn't get fired, meaning I didn't get what I wanted, I have to get myself ready to go into a legal battle, which I've never done. I'd like to write how it all began and I'd like to ask many many help from here on this reality of life I got myself in. Emotional support, legal support, and mental health support.

I had to do it today, less than 10 marks though.

Now I'm sitting here, thinking, I never needed help from someone like this, ever. Something specific to this part of forum, I want to stop cutting, I can't start it when I'm at home, no matter how much I'm distressed emotionally, I shouldn't act on it.

Reason not to do sticky thread. I browsed a bit before, couldn't find anything that talks to me, because back then, I wasn't even starting this yet. Now, I may take a look again, I'll just see how it goes. It helps to cope, and at the same time, I know it's a wrong way to cope.

The last one was a bit too much, the blood got soaked through the shirt sleeve. But all I've been doing is not even big enough to call it a injury. Did I harm myself? I'm not sure. I got so much to do,,,

Anyways, I'm gonna have to get help in lots of places, I don't even know where to start and how to ask help. So, I'll probably be closing this thread and should you have any questions about what was happening at my work place, like how ppl reacted, or you can also ask me about the motives, my mood state, my past, anything at all.

I don't usually do this, but I think I'm gonna wash my blood in the shower soon, eat, take care of few other things and come back. There's no time to lose myself,, one post at a time.