thanks everyone. I applied SUNY Empire State College, a state school geared towards adults wanting to get their degrees that offers a combination of remote and onsite learning. I'm just waiting for all my transcripts to get there. We'll see how this goes. I'm still hit with waves of self-doubt thinking I'm stupid for doing this but that's what I always do to myself. Hopefully I'll be starting in the January term (if I get in) but I'm right at the application deadline so may have to wait until their next term - we'll see.