rcat, as I deal with mental issues too, it's easier for me to understand, so we had exactly that conversation the last time she was out of control. I told her I cared too much about her to see her like that and simply ignore it, that if she sees herself like that, something must be wrong and it can be treated for better, it doesn't have to be an everlasting thing and I know how devastating it is, I know she's not making it up... but there's a way out. She kind of nodded when I said I'd make her an appointment, but now she's back to refusal again. I refrain to tell her how her obviously disordered self affects me as she has asked me that when I was having bad issues years ago. She knows it does, but I think she feels like she's got nothing to lose... now that she's lost my father. Her world runs around him.

I know she's more than depressed. She has deep issues and a disordered behaviour, for sure. She was victim of verbal abuse by her mother when she was younger.

She doesn't like psychologists, she thinks we're defending my father and that she's supposed to be the crazy one. On the other hand, she refers to herself as useless, broken... so she recognizes something to be taken care of. Oh, we don't have a family doctor, it's not usual where I live at.