Often when I am depressed it is hard to make eye contact with people. So I look away from the therapist while I talk. Many times when I look back, I catch my therapist yawning. Last session I caught her face palming in frustrated exasperation. When she sees me look at her, she always tries to act very interested in what I'm saying, but obviously she can't stand to listen to me.

I know I am boring, and I know that it must be frustrating for her because I don't make progress. I have been thinking about discontinuing therapy. I am 49, so I have a thick skin, but I no longer look forward to the sessions and apparently the therapist is frustrated. Maybe the therapist wants the money, but I suspect she has given up on improving me. If she has given up, then probably there is little chance of me gaining from the therapy now.

So it seems to me that I should stop therapy. I don't know if I should try a different therapist or try some self-help books and so forth. Any advice? I am very depressed lately, so I worry if my analysis is distorted.