i understand the uncertainty. depression makes it worse, and it's quite difficult to find and hold on to a strand of hope. i have had depression for 15 years. i had a stroke a year and a half ago. i certainly am not getting younger. i'm only 35 now. i sure feel very uncertain of my future, even though i'm married with a loving and caring husband. the stroke complicated my depression really bad, and i'm having an extraordinarily difficult time finding the right treatment for it. having so much difficulty in holding on to a strand of hope. this is where i need my faith, and it's hard to hold on to it, too. sorry if this is gloomy, but hope is out there somewhere.