I have a lot of unhealthy coping strategies to cope with negative emotions, and i DO like them, they keep me sane but they are not always available or feasable or i do not always want to act on them, so i thought id start this thread to help me cope by writing instead of acting on them... And going CRAZY.

No answers needed, but any comment, suggestion or just passing by saying you read will be greatly appreciated so that i wont feel completely alone in my struggles...
Thanks.

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Right now id want to eat tons of junk food and maybe drink some vodka too because i feel trapped where i dont want to be (at work) and i'm having violent flashes where i self harm and kill myself and cant stand the thought of not being able to go straight home after work and do another hour of work somewhere else and especially LIVE tomorrow too and having to wait too long before talking with my good T (i decided the pace but because of not being able to afford it, not because i feel well on my own without him and i miss him SO much and we left lots of things unspoken and i MISS HIM SO MUCH that i feel like crying)...

~ Hopefully i wont eat or drink...

PS. Sorry for all these posts these days