Sorry for being nosy but may I ask why you don't want to have a life? And if you're not interested in anything at all.... why are you looking for a friend? Isn't that a part of "a life" as well? Or do you only see knowing hundreds of people as having a life?

I think people on the avoidant forum are pretty withdrawn from life, as you call it, but that's not always by choice. One of the main traits of avoidants is that we do want to connect to people but can't .

Have you had a look at the Schizoid personality disorder forum?