Tomorrow in am going to see my T.

Last session went to a place I wasn't ready for and it hit me like a sledgehammer! She asked me if I disocciated... I have very little idea what that means. I was trying not to go 'back there', and went sort of blank. After that I've had a few flashbacks and I've been struggling all week.

She said we should talk about it in the next session, which is tomorrow.

I emailed her the incident that came up.

I really need to talk about the implications but don't want to over do it again as it took until yesterday to feel relatively 'normal' again, and I can feel all the panic and the other stuff coming back again. Part of me wants to cancel the session. But I know that won't be helpful.

Urgh!

And I emailed her in a place of feeling really out of control of my emotions and must have come across like such a needy child [emoji19]
That's what happens when I listen to someone else and email her in between sessions!



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