The part about no interest was about "reallife" only. Trying to fit into society, wanting to live like everyone else,...
The thing with me is, I dislike the world, the way things work, people. It's just not my place at all. People always try to change and bend you, most people aren't very thoughtfull, they're naive, easily influenced, or manipulative, lieing, acting, playing with people...and a lot of people don't even realize how things are. I'm not sure what else to say, I don't care about what people do, but I'd rather not get involved with the world more then necessary. I have a lot of "problems" with being around people physical too, which is probably obvious, given that I posted this in this sub forum. There just isn't anything of interest out there.
This world isn't made for me, but I missed my chance to kill myself a lot of years ago, now I don't feel bad enough for it anymore.
I'm fine with online stuff. I'm a human, no one wants to truly be alone forever, no matter what they think or say, that's what I started to believe. Just having someone you can truly connect to, isn't that the most important thing which makes life bearable for everyone (most people?)? And online contact is pretty much the only thing I'm comfortable with.

I've read about people here who have family, children, friends, or maybe just one person.
I think what I mean with having a life is if someone hold on to things like that. I understand it, I understand they have problems too, but I just feel like they're too different then me, who would never be able to have something like a family, or a less extreme example, just a fulfilling friendship outside of the internet, with meeting in person and things like that.

Oh well, lot's of words and I'm not sure if anything I just wrote explained much.
I just don't think I can connect to someone who has a "reallife", knowing they'll get absorbed into it at some point. Someone else had good words for that, most people don't take online contacts too seriously. To me, that's all there is, I'd choose that over people I knew/know outside of the internet.
I do want to connect to someone (not a lot of people at once), just not outside of the internet.
I did consider the schizoid forum for this, but I ended up thinking that it might not be the correct place, since from what I understood, they tend to not want to connect to people, not even online. They aren't shy and have no social anxiety,... things I have... honestly they seem to be more "stable" people. Or maybe people who chose to close their minds about certain things, I don't know.
I did look at the schizoid sub-forum for a good while, but it seems even there are a lot of people with family/children/friends, they seem to be pretty functional with things like work too, if they manage to find one. I don't think most people who truly show schizoid traits would be open to try a friendship with me over the internet. I don't just want a superficial friend, I want to get to know each other and connect. What I saw there just confirmed that belief, either they "have a life", or they don't even want to have online contacts beyond playing games or little things like that.

I might be wrong, I'm not that knowledgeable, some people over there might actually misjudge themselves too, so maybe it's worth a shot, but I don't exactly want to spam these kind of threads everywhere either, it would feel weird, this was already weird enough for now.

Also I don't mind anyone being nosy or questioning anything, so no need to worry about it.