A couple of weeks ago, I posted a thread asking what to do when you have no motivation to do anything. In talking with my therapist, I found it's deeper than that. I have no desires at all for anything. Things that used to excite me don't even get a response from me anymore. Even going to a concert holds no interest. I've gotten very good at putting on masks. I guess all of us do. It's easier to smile and pretend you're happy than to have to explain what's going on. But, now, I seem to be wearing them all the time. Especially for my wife who's trying to make me happier. She gets me concert tickets to my favorite bands and I have to fake excitement. This loss of desire has now saturated every aspect of my life. Reading, movies, music, talking to friends and family, spending time outside. Even sex holds no meaning or interest. I have three emotions; depression, anger, and blah. I have no answers and, sadly, my response to this is indifference. All I want to day all day everyday is lay in bed and stare at the ceiling. Not only have I dug this rut I'm in but I've made it my home. Due to physical and psychological conditions, I'm unable to work (fortunately, I guess, I'm on SSD) so I have nowhere to go. This summer, my truck broke down and I can't afford to fix it or get a new one, so I have no way to go anywhere. So, I have all the time in the world to sleep almost 24/7. One more factor to this is I'm also, among other psychological ailments socio-agoraphobic so taking public transportation is out. I need to find my way out of this scary world I've designed for myself but I seem to have forgotten my way home.