Sorry to bother. I usually don't like to ask for help and advice because I don't like to bother anyone. I am a 34 year old lesbian struggling with being bullied, severe depression and anxiety on top of ptsd I recently lost s good job due to my depression and crying and shaking. Based on my experience and college background, I was able to get interviews. However when I get to the interview my head convulses and my eyes go back due to my severe anxiety. That also happens on the train. I don't know what to do anymore. I tried. I even had to quit college and national society of leadership due to my finances because I recently lost my job. My former boss also said she will make sure I get unemployment. She lied. Unemployment wants to do a 3 week investigation which can also hurt my credit. I feel so suicidal and tried everything but scared of pain. I been in and out of hospitals and they only make me worse. Therapists included. I'm at my wits end.