I'm not taking a shower since yesterday, this is not good.

I'm not in a rat race. The reality out there seems so fast paced, because I'm slowing down and taking the time to think, it's like spinning at lightning speed, just saying. Not racing productively though. Thoughts get stuck and unstuck, I'm not helping myself.

From weakened mind to a stronger determined mind in a matter of seconds.

I was just outside looking at beautiful color on the trees, some leaves falling, watching ppl and everything right in front of my eyes, thinking I could lose all of that if I get treated. It's just life, find strength and I just follow it. I'm seeing more, comparing this to past big life change, life altering decisions, ,,,,,,,,

Who do I trust?

It's not about the outside appearance that's for sure. Suits and tie, they look suspicious to me. Always. or the upper management ppl. Things are built from ground up.