Hi ChavInaHat. Try to relax. Your T is not judging you like you are judging yourself. They are trained to be open minded.

Not sure what your T means by dissociatino. If you want more on Dissociative Disorder you will find it here:
An Introduction to Dissociative Disorders (and Multiple Personality Disorder)

Better to do the session or if you are anything like me you will blame yourself and judge not going.