I know something is wrong with me, but I'm not sure what. It's very distressing. I'm unhappy, but it's not a depression unhappy. It's this kind of empty, flat unhappy. I can't work on my writing because when I sit down to convey any type of emotion in my writing, or even in my journal, I get exhausted immediately. I can't focus or concentrate and am unmotivated, though I don't want to be unmotivated, so I try to motivate myself, but it just leads to the above mentioned. I told my husband I can't focus or concentrate and feel unhappy, and he mentioned something about a racing mind (like maybe I can't focus because I have too many thoughts or something), and I told him I don't have any thoughts. The last thing I have is a racing mind.

This is going to sound bad, but I just want to stare at a wall for hours (please don't make fun of me!). I'm sure I could. Right now all I do is work and come home and watch this stupid alien show on netflix! And then feel guilty because I'm not working on my writing.

I don't know what to do about my unhappiness! I'm just in a rut I guess. I don't know what to do.

Anyone have any happiness advice? I hate feeling this way.