George you did a good and wonderful thing. We adopted a feral kitten that my husband found while doing yard work for a senior on our block. The elderly lady would keep food out side for the cats and they just kept having kittens after kittens.

She passed away and now her daughter is stuck with all of these cats and kittens. The kitten who we call McGee weighed 13 oz's and had infections in both of his eyes. My husband brought him home to me to nurse back to life and get medicine for his eyes. The vet said he would not have lived out the week if my husband had not taken him. The daughter is working with a feral cat program in our city to get them all spayed or neutered. It's healthy for them but I know how sad you are.

I tried taking McGee outside and he ran right back to the door. Some are just not meant to be with people. It's sad and while I am typing this I have one cat on my lap and one on the back of my chair.

Keep looking for him but just know you did good. And there should be more people out there like you