Ad Intra,

I completely understand your plight. I never realized I had PTSD because I never had the flashbacks that you see in the movies or that many service members may experience. I experience it all emotionally. It is extremely difficult to explain to anyone, especially since the offending trauma began at a very young age.

I best explain them to my therapist as a deep sadness (a grief for a part of me that had no control or understanding why one person I trusted and loved would reject and hate me and why one person I trusted and loved could hurt me and threaten me) It is an anger, confusion, sadness and yet I know I should heal, forgive, and let judgment befall them in the end. The same with each of my violent ex-husbands.

If your therapist is not helping you move along in your therapy and you feel as though she/he is not understanding how you are trying to express yourself, you should be able to request another therapist.