Recently I've been in an up/down rollercoaster.
One day I will think that life is beautiful, everyone is wonderful and my life is perfect (example; yesterday).
Then, I will get hit with sadness, not wanting to do anything and being to sensitive where I always want to cry.
I don't know whats wrong with me. I am in therapy and I am on medication.
I was diagnosed with Clinical Depression and Generalized Anxiety when I was 6 years old.
Currently, I am in college right now. I am scared to tell my boyfriend this stuff because we had a talk a few days ago about how he doesn't really understand my anxiety. I don't want to push him away. I've had experiences where I did push people away because of things I couldn't control or didn't seem to realize.
I really just feel overwhelmed.
Even during therapy on Wednesday I was so overhwlemed afterwards I just started sobbing. Left for two hours, cried outside and went back to my therapist who let me sit in the waiting room until I coped.
I have a friend I can talk to and hes chill about everything and is going through the same problem.
I don't even want to go home anymore (I am dorming in college) because my parents give me anxiety too and i'm scared that I am not good enough for them. So, I haven't been home in almost 2 weeks. I always feel like I am doing something wrong.
It's also effecting my attendance in classes. I don't know.

To get my mind off of this I go to coffee shops, exercise, go to the park, and things like that. But, I am always by myself. My boyfriend does take me out and everything but I am talking about in general because he works full time.

Sorry for ranting, I just wanted to let this out.