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Originally Posted by RomanJames2014
I have decided to go off of my meds because I feel like my PDOC and Therapist are just trying to control me. Sometimes I don’t even believe in bipolar disorder. I think its all made up by doctors, pharma, and insurance companies. I feel like he would love to have me committed just to have some drama to talk about.
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I did the exact same thing for the exact same reason back in spring of 2014.'let me just say it ended with me being terrified to leave my house, believing people were implanting thoughts in my head and could read my thoughts, and thinking everyone I met was trying to kill me. And of course ended in hospitalization because even when I started my meds again they didn't work.
Point is looking back I can see I started to become paranoid three weeks before the complete meltdown and my first thoughts were "they're just trying to control me".
Be mindful. Your thoughts can betray you. Bipolar is very real; it took that episode to convince me. I hope you don't run into the same issue.