I understand. Being removed from my life for mental or physical reasons is one of my biggest fears, too many things would fall apart were I not here.

Sometimes we do just have to fight on and find a way to function, with me it is acceptance of a life-long Depressive Disorder and Mirtazapine. The meds do little, but I am worse without them, Therapy is not an option, my last two betrayed my trust and I now have no faith in any of them for myself.

I do hope you can draw the strength you need from within with whatever support you can garner from without.

Dave.