I feel like if it were 6 weeks I could do it. But this would be 2 years with no guarantee I could come back anyway. If it were just a matter of that, I think I could convince myself, but I hate the idea of being a full time psych patient for that long. It's an identity thing, and I feel like it would be damaging/hurtful to me, and make it hard for me to go back and finish grad school. I finished an intensive program like this about 8 yrs ago at another hospital, and finishing it/having to re-enter the real world afterward was way more damaging than never having done it. It took forever to think of myself as a "normal person" or to shed that "sick" identity, and I swore never again. We will talk about it tomorrow though.