It doesn't seem to matter if I do everything "right". I exercise, I eat healthy foods, I've a lean body mass, I meditate, I go to therapy, I take meds, I take vitamins and Omega 3s, I work towards small, "obtainable" goals (which keep getting smaller and harder atm), I do my best to get out of the house and keep in touch with people, but everything is getting harder again. Sometimes impossible. Meds suck. I'm starting to resent them because all I seem to get are "side effects". Which can be from "mildly annoying" to "get me out of here".

It's happening again. Yet another episode. How many more years must this take, or is this just how it is now? Tired of this crap.