This also is really ridiculous I realize, but I am also terrified of being labelled BPD again. My current T who is an expert on BPD (lots of publications, etc. She also works with one of the world experts on it. If you google pretty much anything on BPD, decades of his books and articles pop up, he's testified in a bunch of high profile trials, etc) also worked in that program for10 years says I am not, and it was a misdiagnosis because of the SH (I also clearly have abandonment issues), but also that this is the closest thing they have for treatment for people with severe self-harm issues. I was so grateful to get away from the stigma of BPD, and terrified of how people will treat me if I'm in this program which is mainly people with BPD. I have had people say the worst things to me because of my scars or when I was younger in the ER for stitches. I'm so afraid of that. I think maybe I need to talk about that too.