Hello Melmo: I don't know why you are so angry. Perhaps it has to do with how you were raised, or something that happened to you in the past. I have, & pretty-much have always had, the same kind of over-the-top anger. I know some of the things that I believe may have contributed to it. But I also wonder sometimes if maybe to some extent it's just genetic... just how I was built. I think in order to have any hope of figuring out why you're as angry as you are, you'd have to delve into this at length with a skilled therapist. Perhaps you are... The more pressing question here though would seem to be what can you do about it? Therapy may be of some help there too. But I also wonder if there might be some educational services available that would help you to learn alternative ways of handling your children's behavior. This may be worth looking into. Also, if you find that you are isolated, joining a moms support group might be a great option. There you could talk with other moms who have similar struggles, get some suggestions as to how to handle problem behaviors, & just generally share with other moms who are having similar experiences. I'm quite certain you are far from the only mom who is having similar difficulties. My best wishes to you...