Hello Rand: Yes, it does get old after a while. Sometimes I think to myself: "I just can't stand this another minute!" This has led me to some very dark places in the past. I'm not on med's anymore. They never did much good & I just can't afford them anymore. The thing I have going for me is that I'm old. I don't have a life anymore, but it's okay. No one expects me to.

From what you wrote, it sounds like you're doing just about everything you could possibly do & more. I hope that you will be able to find a pathway to healing.