I'm stuck in this never ending cycle of unmet needs in my marriage, which makes me want to leave.
I stay because I have a child.

I want to go, then we talk & try to work things out but never get far.
My moods are always shifting & his complacency keeps driving me down.

Is it all bipolar? I feel like he "triggers" my depression.

It is getting worse & I have been suicidally depressed this past week.

It's like which came first, are the problems a result of bipolar swings or are the problems real & bipolar intensifies it?

Gosh, I feel so stuck. I hate this trapped feeling. Not knowing if I can trust my feelings.
I don't know what is real or not.