I just found out I most likely will have a job offer finally in my field. I'm freaking out. I've been hesitant going into my field because of not knowing when bipolar is going to show its ugly face, basically stability. One minute I'm thinking I can do this, I'm strong. The next minute I doubt myself and feel I will fail. Then I say I won't let myself fail. I'm so lost today. I'm so bored with the job I have been doing for years now, I don't use my brain at all. I can't keep sitting idol, but don't want to fail, I will lose everything. I'm lost in my little tiny world right now. Pity party, sorry.