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Originally Posted by PinkFlamingo99
This also is really ridiculous I realize, but I am also terrified of being labelled BPD again. My current T who is an expert on BPD (lots of publications, etc. She also works with one of the world experts on it. If you google pretty much anything on BPD, decades of his books and articles pop up, he's testified in a bunch of high profile trials, etc) also worked in that program for10 years says I am not, and it was a misdiagnosis because of the SH (I also clearly have abandonment issues), but also that this is the closest thing they have for treatment for people with severe self-harm issues. I was so grateful to get away from the stigma of BPD, and terrified of how people will treat me if I'm in this program which is mainly people with BPD. I have had people say the worst things to me because of my scars or when I was younger in the ER for stitches. I'm so afraid of that. I think maybe I need to talk about that too.
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The biggest problem with all 'personality disorders' is that they don't exist. Not in the way real diseases do. Cancer, for instance, is where an observable change in the cells causes uninterrupted replication.
BPD is just a list of behaviors from which you pick a handful and toss a label at someone. BPD can't be seen in the brain. There's no blood test for it. It's not real. It's only use is for those who provide treatment to be able to discuss people who display a set of behaviors at various times.
Nobody 'has' BPD. They are described that way. Does that make sense?
So you don't have to accept the BPD diagnosis. You don't have to label yourself that way. You don't have to announce it, or identify with it.
And you don't have to accept ****** treatment from people either. It sounds like you have a really great therapist and I really hope you get the help you need to keep yourself safe. No made up acronym should stand in the way of you getting healthier.