I understand. I really do. I'm there with you right now. I feel like I've fallen into depression though...or as my mom said "you're probably just about to start." Humbug. Anyway, all my love to you my friend. You really do cheer me up and give me positive affirmations and I appreciate you for you. I'm sorry you are going through this.

Also, I have no idea why as this is actually a love song, but for some reason, your post reminds me of this song so I thought I'd share:

Swan Dive - Ani Difranco


PS: you'll have to listen to the entire song to understand why I'm saying this as many of the metaphors fit but many do not.