I am so so SO freaking disappointed in myself right now! I lost control the night before last...I grabbed a razor for the first time in over a YEAR. A whole freaking YEAR! and I ruined all that success in less than 30 minutes. I suck. I just plain suck. So obviously I feel horrible right now. I seem to be falling back into all my old habits.

Tonight I did it again...BUT...this time won't be like before, not like a year ago. I can handle this...I am so afraid that someone will see and freak out that I make only one cut...just one and go over it over and over again. It's not that deep, just enough to bleed...so I can finally breathe...Is it means for me to worry...about just one cut? I mean, one tiny line..not even that deep..can't be that bad...right?
HELP! I'm falling and I need a hand here!