Theoretically no one can make you feel anything, but they do. That's normal. I agree about the work, at least that's the way it should be. I think it's great that most of you feel better from therapy. That's what I want.

I feel very alienated from myself right now. The last year has been terrible. I've lost all sense of normalcy and continuity in my life. Physically I can't do some things I used to. Obviously there are some things I have to accept. I'm not sure though that accepting my failures as a permanent condition is a good idea. Nor am I sure that pathologizing yet another aspect of my person is a good idea. I mean I have been depressed recently, and have struggled with it throughout my life. I know that. But that doesn't mean I should give up. Right now I have reason to be upset. I think I should be able to accept myself and my present situation without giving up on all my hopes and dreams.

My T is certainly partly right that I need to accept some things. In spite of everything, I think maybe I need someone else. I appreciate her personally I just don't agree with her philosophy. As far as therapy goes, I imagine its like a lot of things, it has to be working for you.

With my benign brain tumor, and now with my back, I realize every day that I have limitations. They can't be thought or ignored away. However I won't let them determine my sense of self. Part of your sense of self is what you actually do, and what you want. I know I'll probably never be able to do certain things, or have certain things. "Accepting" my life as it is now doesn't make any sense. I accept I have a brain tumor. I don't accept that it's ok for me to be in the situation I'm in.