I'm sorry sweety, as I was reading your story, I kept thinking that this sounds pretty bipolar to me. Symptoms for everyone is different. You can have a little of this and/or a lot of that, or not at all of the other...

Sometimes I think we are under the impression that we have to have earth moving symptoms to be called bipolar, but just exhibiting the symptoms, even though they aren't life crippling according to us, is enough for a diagnosis. We don't like thinking that there is anything wrong with us, so we tend to minimize our rationale.

Your anti-d sidetrack there cements your nomination in the Halls of Bipolar! I'm sorry.

A way that helped me see what the real deal was is when I got stabile, I was able to see what it was really doing to me...it was that obvious.

I hope this works for you to get better!