I've been a loner for as long as I can remember.
When I was younger I was around a lot of people that were sort of friends... and a whole bunch of dangerous folks.
But... both good guys and bad guys are peripheral now.
I tried for so many years to fit my square peg of a head into a triangle, but it makes me feel even more alone than when I'm alone.
It is lonely... very lonely.
It's not exactly self-imposed but in relationships it's like I always have to be someone other than who I am.