I have to say that I love this website because it allows me to know I am not alone in surviving my abuse. Does anyone else get triggered from reading and trying to help others on this site? I ask because trying to help people makes me relive me abuse over and over again and I can't get it out of my head. I mean I normally think about it almost everyday as something makes my mind go back to that time and place. I think I need help and my significant other can't help me as he doesn't understand, I can't talk to my family so I just live with the demons in my head. I sometimes post on this website to at least get things out but even then I can't completely come clean. My hunny says it's because I haven't faced my mom and her ex about everything, but I already relive it enough and I don't want to have to do it again. What should I do therapy is expensive and I'm against medicine although I probably should take it. Please advise thank you.