I've isolated myself.

The psychiatrist, an MD, actually blew me off because I told him to fix his billing problems with the insurance company and let me know if I owe him before I make my next appointment. I think I probably over paid him. The doctor is more dysfunctional than me! I've had it with mental health professionals.

I'm a severely depressed patient, and the doctor blows me off! Ridiculous!

I am ending the abusive relationship with my mother after yet another blow out fight.

My marriage is a nightmare.

I am so depressed I have no desire to do anything. I stay home crying all day. I am praying for somelthing to help me out of this self-imposed prison.

I am trying to just tough it out, no meds, no self medicating, fighting the urge to SH (I'm not a cutter, but hit myself out of frustration- argh, so embarrassing).

I don't know what to do. I just don't have the strength to divorce my husband. I don't have any faith in doctors and therapists anymore.

I guess it'll just be a few years more until I can just pack my bags and leave because the last child will be grown.

I wish I knew what I can do to help myself. I'd go take myself to the hospital, but I'm not suicidal. What would they do for me?

Shame and curses on my husband who IS a medical professional and lets me suffer like this.