TerriLynn is right -- confrontation doesn't automatically lead to healing. Unloading on them isn't going to remove the trauma in your own mind. All those feelings and memories will still be there. There's also a very real reason to believe they won't take responsibility. Abusers are usually people who embrace responsibility.
There are low cost options for treatment, lots of therapists have sliding scales so they can accommodate patients who can't pay some blanket hourly fee. I think the search feature at Psychology Today lets you select therapists with sliding scales. If you call one who specializes in trauma, ask them about payment and tell them your financial concerns. If you have insurance, try contacting your provider and asking them about options, they should be able to supply you with therapists in your area who take your insurance.
I still get triggered sometimes, but it's so much better than it was before I started therapy. At first I reached out here for comfort and then wanted to help, but sometimes it's just too early to start helping each other, we're just not healed enough yet.
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