well.... i guess i'd say just... LIFE?

i do feel like all my life is a bad dream i cant wake up from.

yes, im taking anti anxiety meds (to help me sleep) even though i dont feel anxious, but everyone tells me i do look like i am, so i guess i must be...

i mean... anxiety.... i've learned to control it, so that i dont FEEL it, but it probably is there anyway and it comes up in me in my head through thoughts rather than common anxiety feelings or physical symptoms. does it make any sense?

anyway, thanks for the suggestion.