Kind of, I just learned that it's nothing I enjoy or want. For me it has something to do with a lot of discomfort and stress, not simply not caring about it at all. It's something negative even if it's a person that isn't even "bad". Maybe because of anxiety.
Either way, I'll send you a PM later or maybe tomorrow, I'm being a bit tired today and don't really feel like going into details with things like these at the moment.
I still wanted to at least reply with something.