What I'm struggling with lately is fear of my own sickness (BiPolar, OCD) and how it will never go away. Thinking about the foreverness of it makes me very anxious. I also fear complete loss of mental control and that some medicine I take or some outside force will lead me into complete psychosis. I fixate on these thoughts and drive myself into panic attacks.
I know I need to learn to accept my illness and the fear will lessen but it is very hard and I am very stubborn.
I also fear that fearing going crazy is going to actually drive me crazy.