When this last doctor's help fell through, is when I started writing here on PC. What a long, strange trip it's been.

I liked this last doctor. He was a nice man, seemed genuinely caring. He only repeated everything I said and then he actually remembered all the things I said in prior sessions. I thought "You poor man, I can't even stand hearing myself say these things, how you must feel having to repeat them!". I don't think the talk therapy helped anyway. I've taken many meds and none of them helped either. He would say 'Try this' for new, more serious meds, but I was too scared of the potentially really bad side effects.

It's so confusing because:
My issues are with a couple of people who really are difficult.
I don't know if there's really an underlying diagnosis that is causing the problems.

Yes, I am too sensitive, and I'm sure I have intimacy issues. Yes, I really did go through some trauma. The frustration and anger has manifested into major depression and self-hatred during these 'episodes'.

I know we're all struggling and looking for answers here. Thanks.